- Review 2022 Goals – Done
- Read 20 books.
- House plus electrical changes. Finish stage one of garage.
- Work on personal website more.
- Do more business than 2022.
- Working on business website.
- Look into more coaching opportunities – coaching basketball again.
- Coaching team members at work.
- Get back into piano – learn one song.
- Run mini-marathon – signed up. Finished and recovered well.
- Run monumental marathon. Moving this to next year.
- 2023 Best year ever!!!
- Financial goals – 1.5x passive income from last year.
- Address issue with decks.
- Add more goals – planning in progress.
I wake up excited for the day and head into work. I have a date set up for tonight, unfortunately it is at the same time as my massage studio appointment times. Maybe I can talk my date into moving the date to later tonight. I decide to text him before heading to work. “Hi I never answered about tomorrow. I have a client at 6 PM…” Maybe he will take to hint to make the date later on his own. My date replies at about two hours later “Ok would you like to meet later tonight? Like 7:30 PM? How long are the massages?” I replied about an hour later with “Two hours so I wouldn’t be finished until 8:15-8:30 so wouldn’t be getting to the date location until 8:50/9PM” Is that too late? Maybe I should ask him to reschedule? I will just see what he replies with.
He replies about 10 minutes later with “Ok sounds like reschedule is in order. I am actually going on vacation after work on Friday and will not be back for a week. New date night in two weeks at 7PM at a specific location.” I am a little lukewarm about waiting two weeks to meet this man again. I wonder if he is really going on vacation or blowing me off. I guess I will wait and see.
A week and a half pass and I get a text from my date “Hey Jules. How are you? I am looking forward to our date on Thursday and gave some more information about the location” I have not heard anything from him in a week and a half and am talking to three other guys that are interested in dating. I do not know what to reply so I just go with “Hiii!” “Wow, life” I pause for a couple minutes to compose my self and reply with “I’m doing well. I just haven’t stopped since I saw you last. I knew this was coming. Just making it through This month and the next isn’t so crazy as I am ensuring I finish out clients I already had scheduled. I am good for Thursday. I blocked off my schedule so there are no surprise bookings. I am off work at 5:30 then will be able to meet.”
Knowing that I have a date set up must have caused me to glow because right after confirming this date one of the attractive guys at the stretching studio asks me what I am doing Thursday night. Now what do I do. I have been waiting and fantasizing about this very situation. I have to go with the attractive guy right. I will keep my options open and decide Wednesday.
Wednesday rolls around and I am still on the fence on which man to go on the date with. I decide to hedge my bets and send my date a text to feel him out. “Hi, I hope your day is going well. Not sure if you had gotten my message about tomorrow or not? I have been thinking heavily and I want to maintain transparency here. I don’t think I see a romantic relationship happening in our future. I have enjoyed hanging with you and starting to get to know you. I am still very up for meeting tomorrow if you want but also completely understand if not. Thank you for being so on top of it and kind. It’s been refreshing (heart emoji) Wishing you well.” I hope he takes this well. I also do not want to lead him on.
My date replies “Hey Jules. How are you? Let’s just go have fun. Thank you for the transparency. See you at 7 PM tomorrow.” Well at least I know he does not just want to have sex with me, but what do I do now. Two dates and I am indecisive. I reply with “Great! See you there! I’m doing well, feeling positive today. How are you?” We chat back and forth for the rest of the afternoon.
I waked up at 5:30 am in the morning and am in major pain. The first thought I have is to decide on whether to cancel my date tonight or not. I woke up not feeling well. My rheumatoid arthritis is acting up on me today. I quickly call my doctor because this is not normal. My feet, left knee, right back, elbows, and wrists hurt the worst but is feels like my whole body. I am also worried if my left knee does not quit swelling I will have to go to the doctor and get it drained again. The doctor say I may need to come in to get a steroid injection. Uggh. I decide to just let my date know I don’t feel well and see if I feel better later. I send him a text “Good Morning! It was a very rough night with my body and I’ve been in contact with my doctor already today. Sometimes by end of day I’m better… sometimes I’m ready to collapse in bed. Just want to keep you in the loop in case it’s the latter”
My date replies about 15 minutes later with “Good morning. I’m sorry to hear that. I hope you are feeling better by tonight. I am looking forward to our date tonight. No worries though if you need to take care of yourself. Just let me know how you are feeling later today.” he added a Tin man gif where Dorothy is oiling the tin man to lubricate him up. That is a nice call back from our first date when I was describing my rheumatoid arthritis. I really like this guy but for some reason I am not turned on by him – no spark. I replied to his message and gif with “Laughed at an image” “Yes exactly!” “Thank you” all before I head into work at 9 AM.
I work at a facility that specializes in stretching athletes and I get to interact with attractive guys all day long. Sometimes, I imagine my date will be some of the people I stretch. The location is right next to a group of gyms and yoga studios so we have a lot of clients. I also just started my own massage studio that advocates for keeping people in constant motion and giving off positive energy. The combination keeps me busy most of the time. How do I have time to date?
I decide at just before 5 PM to text my date and call off the date. I text him “I’m going to need to go home after I finish work today. I have been hanging on a thread. Doctor put me back on steroids so I should feel some relief here soon. I’m so sorry” Hopefully he does not react poorly, this man has been the best person to date so far. He sets up a date, time, and place. All I have to do is show up and be pretty. It is refreshing.
He replies about 10 minutes later with “Ok no problem. What is causing you issues today?” I am glad he is not mad. I explain my issues and where it hurts. He replied with a funny gif of daffy duck saying everything hurts and asks if there is anything he can do to help. I reply “Yesssssssss it does. You’re already being so understanding and supportive. That’s more than enough”
I decide to never text this man again. What is wrong with me?
- House stuff – making good progress – my list keeps growing. – Done with more in 2022.
- Electrical – pissing me off to be honest. I have decided to do it on my own at least get started on it. – Planning stage for 2022.
- Redacted ███████████ – in process – Rolled to 2022.
- Read 27 books – 20 adult books and 22 children’s books. 42 total. – Done
- Year of the Rattie – Nope not happening anytime soon.
- Review 2020 Goals -Done
- Work on website again – seems to be going well but not as well as planned. – Rolling to 2022.
- Try to update more often – not as often as I thought for sure. Rolling to 2022.
- 2021 Best year ever!!! – Done
- Try out ██████
- Get a smoker – Done
- Get a charcoal grill – Done
- Get a griddle – Done.
- Be a great Coach – seems to be going well. Ended the season well. – Done.
- The Wonderful Wizard of Oz
- New Kid
- Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (2)
- How to Train Your Dragonbook 1
- Insignificant Events in the Life of a Cactus
- The Parker Inheritance
- The Gruffalo
- Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
- Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland
- Through the Looking Glass
- The BFG
- The Bad Beginning – A Series of Unfortunate Events, Book 1
- A Suitable Boy
- The dog who lost his bark
- Neck & Neck
- Daredevil the Cat
- Katt vs. Dogg
- Artemis Fowl
- The Arctic Incident (Artemis Fowl, Book 2)
If you saw Atlas, the giant who holds the world on his shoulders, if you saw that he stood, blood running down his chest, his knees buckling, his arms trembling but still trying to hold the world aloft with the last of his strength, and the greater his effort the heavier the world bore down upon his shoulders-what would you tell him to do?
I know what I would do and say but what would you do?